Eden - drugs Lyrics

`Cause I had the best of the worst sides
And I had these lungs, ohh
And I had too many flash firesThat I just let them burn

`Til my chest is on fire
And my head just won`t die
I guess I`m lying `cause I want her
I guess I`m lying `cause I don`t
`Cause I just feel so tired
Like it`s move or slowly die
Said, "You ain`t you, when you`re like this"
"This ain`t you and you know it"
But ain`t that just the point?

And you don`t know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I`m, still caught below
And I`ll never let you know
No, I can`t tell you nothing

`Cause I`m a fucking mess sometimes
But still, I could always be
Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed
Especially when you been needing me
`Cause I`m a fucking mess sometimes
And I`ll say what I don`t mean
Just `cause I wanted, or maybe I need it
Swear, lying`s the only rush I need, yeah

`Cause all I needed was some words to say
That all these feelings don`t mean shit to me, yeah
`Cause it`s all just chemicals anyway
Anyway, yeah

And I got way too many routes to take
To make this all just go away and find another heart to break
So heartless with these words I say
Just saying what I`m supposed to say
`Cause I had nothing for you
I can`t love when I can`t even love myself
Things I would rather be, thoughts in the back of my head
But I`m addicted to hurting
And I got these lungs, yeah
And I spent too many late nights
Just thinkin` a hole in earth

`Til the sky is on fire
And my head still won`t die
I guess I`m lying `cause I want her
I guess I`m lying `cause I don`t
`Cause I just feel so tired
Like I need something to come alive
She said "You ain`t you when you`re like this"
"This ain`t you, what`ve you done?"
And I said, that`s the point

And you don`t know
How to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I`m still caught below
And I`ll never let you know
No, I can`t tell you nothing

`Cause I`m a fucking mess sometimes
But still, I could always be
Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed
Especially when you`ve been needing me

`Cause I`m a fucking mess sometimes
And I`ll say what I don`t mean
Just `cause I wanted, or maybe I need it
Swear, lying`s the only rush I need, yeah